For a whole week, do not say what you want, ever. If the waiter comes and asks you want, silently point to something on the menu or ask him what you should get. Ask him, "What is good here? What do you recommend? What do you like?" Let him decide.

Ask yourself what clothes your boss would like, or your friends. Let the top 3 layers of your drawer choose for you. If you go shopping, let the advertisement choose for you.

If you are choosing a movie, let Netflix's suggestions decide for you. Let your partner choose what restaurant to go to or what meal to cook, whether you like it or not. Let your dog decide if you go right or left on the street.

Notice your experience when you behave according to what others tell you. Notice your own, internal experience. Are you irritated, satisfied, relaxed, tense? What is going on inside of you? Take notes in your Beep!Book. Tell 3 people about your experience of not saying what you want for 1 week.

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This experiment is to:

1. Set the timer on your watch for it to go beep every hour. When it does, you Notice which Identity you are serving in the moment. You notice what your Identity is about. Self-indulgence, or making excuses, or blaming somebody, or trying to be as efficient and hard as possible, really focusing and please other people. Which Identity is in charge in the moment that the beep goes off? Come up with a name for this identity and write it down in your Beep!Book each time.
    
2. Observe and try to recognise what percentages of the day are driven and powered by the wants of the various Identities you identify with. Who are you pleasing? Which Part of you? Your Child Part, your Gremlin Part, your parent's opinions, your boss, your children? Whose wants are you fulfilling?
   
   We are in Mexico right now and we don't know the culture really well. But it seems like people are either very busy doing something, or doing nothing. Most of the people are not doing stuff for themselves. It seems like sitting down and doing nothing and playing with their phone is the time when they get to do something for themselves.
   
   Some people reserve the weekend to do things that they want. Even if you do that as a strategy, how much of your weekend are you doing errands and paying bills?
   It is somehow not okay to do what you want.
   
   Whose wants? Which wants are prevailing, controlling, dominating in your life? What percentage of the day are you serving with which wants?
    
3. Notice which I’s, which identities have the most powerful wants in your daily life.
   After you have self-observed like this for 5 days, check out the different identities and percentages you have written down. Create your top 5 Identities you are identified with. Notice what Feelings and Emotions come up.
    

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1. Make a list in your Beep!Book of 10 things that you would really want to do. Things that are important to you but not urgent, and then usually tend to not happen.
2. Find out what your reasons are. After each thing, write down your reasons why it is not okay to do that thing. Write down who would feel jealous, who would feel abandoned, or that you think you do not have enough money or that it is foolhardy or expensive or not conservative enough.
   Why are you not eating what you want, going where you want, trying what you want, saying what you want, listening to what you want, creating what you want, going where you want?
3. Look at your list. Notice how it is not only external circumstances that are deciding. Notice how it is actually internal circumstances that are determining what you do and do not do. You have a whole library of reasons why to do or not do anything. Most people are not aware of how this library is actively shaping your life.
4. Choose a next step. Schedule an Emotional Healing Process, do one of the things on your list anyway even if you have reasons not to.

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You might not be able to Say What You Want because you do not know what you want. Most probably, long ago, you shut off all the parts of you that did not fit with your mother's wants, your father's wants, your teacher's wants and later your boss's wants, your partner's wants or your children's wants. You shut that down.

This experiment is to reconnect and unleash the part of you that wants things that are not offered on the Modern Culture menu, or on the menu of your survival strategy. The experiment is for 1 week, although really you can keep doing this experiment for the rest of your life. The experiment is to scan for things, ask for things and do things that your Box might think you do not want to do.

You go to a restaurant and instead of choosing the meal you like, you choose the meal that has the weirdest name. Just to try. Think to yourself: "Maybe I would want that if I knew what it was."
Apply for a theatre mask making workshop. Ask a person you do not know for a hug. Go volunteering in a homeless people shelter, or hold space for someone to feel their feelings using the Map of How to Consciously Feel (from the book 'Directing the Power of Conscious Feelings'.

Find out what it is you want, by trying things that your Box has not allowed you to try. The result is that you can expand your options of what it is that you might want. Maybe what you want is actually to experiment.

Who is in control of what you want, you or your Box?

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We have trained ourselves to say 'I would like', or 'Would you like', or 'Let's do this', or 'What if we did this?' which are weak, spinless ways to pretend to not say what we want. These are lies.

For the next week week, stop lying and use the sentence 'I want' at least 20 times per day. Use it before breakfast, 'I want to get out of bed' and get out of bed, 'I want to eat yogurt this morning', 'I want to try this new coffee place with you', etc... Even when messaging. As part of this experiment, in each of your message, write down 'I want...'

Have Fun saying what you want!

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For two weeks, once a day or twice a day, tell different people outrageous things that you want. Including things that might seem to be impossible at the moment. For example you might tell somebody: "I want the entire disposable plastic industry to be banished and each producer to be put in prison. For 10 years." Or you might say: "I want people to be killed to cut down any tree that is older than 10 years old. I want the entire downtown of my city to be blocked off for cars and the streets are changed to pedestrian lanes, and stuff is being carried around by people with wheelbarrows. I want no more polyester clothing to exist on the earth. I want all fish restaurants closed all around the planet."

Tell people forcefully, to the point, regardless of whether they might think it is impossible or not. Do not concern yourself with that. This experiment is to give voice to your own outrageous wants that you have been suppressing because you are trying to be normal or sane and think within the limits that people are okay with. Let your outrageous part come alive.

Practice it with your Possibility Team on stage for a while. Get up there for 5 minutes and shout at your Team all the outrageous things that you want. Use your Anger and commit. Take turns.

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For someone who is a recovering Professional Adaptive, saying what you want will feel like you are an selfish, egocentric, absolutely arrogant asshole.

The first step in this experiment is to do the Emotional Healing Process about your Fear about being an arrogant asshole if you say what you want. Who was an arrogant angry asshole, who commanded with an iron first their crowd, around you when you were young? What was your exact decision about not becoming like them ever?

After doing the EHP, practice comes in.

For an entire week, shift identity into Becoming A Pirate. To remind yourself of this new identity, buy a handkerchief, a Pirate hat or a compass, and wear it ALL THE TIME on your person like a Pirate would do.

From this new identity, for the next 7 days, say what you want and GO DO what you want, no matter if people agree or think about you (or what you think they think about you). As a Pirate, you are on a Quest, and no one can stop you from being on a Quest. You might be surprised about how many people want to accompany you on your Quest, so invite them and make a Party out of it.

At the end of the 7 days, throw a Being a Pirate party (without alcohol) where you invite your guests into doing some of the experiments of this website so they can start practicing saying what they want.

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You have been serving a set of 5 to 7 Bright Principles since you were born. However, because you did not go through your adulthood and archetypal initiatory processes from the moment you were 18 years. Most of your service has been unconscious.

This experiment is a chance to serve your Bright Principles consciously. Before starting this experiment, read slowly and deeply the entire Bright Principle website.

This might feel like a weird experiment to do, and, it is also a Fun experiment to do. This experiment is for one whole day during each of the next three week whenever there is an opportunity to say what you want, pause for a moment, let the first though go by and then let your one or more of your Bright Principle speak and say what they want.

Notice what your Bright Principles want may be different from what you want, in so far as, what your Bright Principles wants is more oriented towards the Archetypal and less oriented towards the personal. Write down in your Beep! Book as many of the things as you can that your Bright Principles want. Tell the legend of doing this experiment at your online or offline Possibility Team.

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Your Archetypal Lineage has a different purpose and wants than your survival strategy, your Box and Gremlin who are absolutely okay with dwelling in the shy, adaptive, subdued state of hesitation or complete abandonment of what you want.

Your Archetypal Lineage has clear wants that might for most the time make no sense to you or be in complete contradiction with your wants.

Noticing the wants of your Archetypal Lineage require lowering your numbness bar to have access to subtle energetic pulls in this or that direction AND a practice in going unreasonable - litteraly that there is no reasonable reason for doing what you want.

Plan an entire day for your Archtetypal Lineages wants. During that day, before each move, lower your numbness bar, and ask your Archetypal Lineage: what do you want now?

It could say: 'I want a bardo special for breakfast', 'I want to walk to the river at this time exactly', and when at the river, it says: 'I want to turn in this street, go into this store, and drop a postcard of your work here exactly', it might say: 'I want to call this person', 'I want to watch this video', 'I want to write this poem', on and on and on.

The experiment is SAY EVERYTHING that your Archetypal Lineage wants to say, and DO EVERYTHING that you Archetypal Lineage wants to do. If you do not do one of the thing, the next things is blocked to come down the tube.

At the end of the day, thank graciously your Archetypal Lineage for having waited for you to listen to what it wanted to say for a long time.

Write a 1-2 page report on your day with Archetypal Lineage.

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